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Saturday, October 1, 2011

Life Does Get In The Way

Hi all! I know I have been bad and have not been keeping up with this blog and I apologize and I am going to try to do better. But as it is said - life gets in the way - of things we enjoy. For a quick update...3 months ago I was so very, very, very tired all the time. It seemed that I could be driving and would almost fall asleep, mid-day naps that would last for hours was starting to be the "norm" for me. I had gone to the doctor for a check-up and mentioned this to the doctor and she ordered tests because this was not the way I wanted to continue my life. Sooo...the diagnosis came back that I am a diabetic. So for the last 3 months I have been trying to get a handle on this new way of life that has hit me. I have been put on a low dosage of medication, ordered by the doctor to lose about 25 lbs and exercise and if I do well and get this under control and I can get off the medication. So me being me...I started an exercise program, have gone to a free nutrition class and when that didn't seem to help with my trying to change eating habits, requested and have attended an nutritional class that was great! I am happy to say that I have more energy than I have had in years! No more naps, getting things done, creating new meals and am finally able to accept that this is going to have to be my way a of life. I have to go to the doctor in 2 weeks to check the ACL levels to see if I am headed to being off meds. So that's why I haven't posted to this blog or have been able to read others.

To be honest...I was very depressed and felt like a failure because I had become diabetic and didn't want to do anything. But, my oldest daughter sent some books that explained this disease...and it seems that I have had many of the pre-existing conditions. She also encouraged my by saying that I have the ability to manage this and not admit defeat. I had gestational diabetes with all 3 kids, have be pre-diabetic for years and when I mentioned to my mom that I was diabetic...she said oh me too! You would think that she would have told me years ago but our relationship is rather...shall I say...different. The last factor is that stress can push you over and the last 2 years of my job was unbearable and I think with all the pre-existing conditions I have, that's what pushed me over the edge. So I decided that I love the outdoors, horses, painting, riding, my eyesight and toes so much that this diabetic thing was not going to control my life...I was going to manage it. So there you have it.

Now on another note I want you all to see my Cyrus now. I posted about him on my first blog and want you to see him now. He has now become my trail horse and we are once again looking for my husband a good trail companion. Cyrus is just alittle much for a beginner. On the trails if he gets nervous he will start a little dance and chomping on the bit which will lead to his little meltdown. If you ignore this and sit down a little further in the saddle he settles down but will get wound up real fast and pop off the ground about 5 inches which is alittle scary to say the least. I think he did this to get the rider off and probably did this in the past and I really feel a rider who is not confident will get shaken up a bit. Not good for the rider or horse. I love riding him on the trails and decided to keep him. What's another horse right?

Here he is the day we picked him up in February 2010

And this was taken in July 2010 before a ride. I think he has gotten so much better looking with the exercise of being ridden and proper feed has given him.

Well that's way for now...come back soon!


~Kim at Golden Pines~ said...

It's good to see a post from you! I know how consuming an illness like this can be, and getting it under control is the biggest priority, and I'm glad that you have made yourself and your health one--So many people don't, me included!

What an amazing transformation Cyrus has made with your care and in your understanding of him!!

Take care, and I do hope you're enjoying your weekend!!

Jim said...

Welcome back Connie! And thanks for dropping by today.
It is good that you have 'taken back your life'! But I do understand what a shock it is to hear such news.....especially when you think things are going well.
Yes it is very important to do what is suggested by the experts and your daughter! That way you will be better able to get on with your life and do everything you enjoy!

Dreaming said...

It makes me happy to read your post and to hear how comfortable you are in your new situation. It sounds like you have your head in the right place!
I also had gestational diabetes with my last child...I'm gonna look up the pre-diabetes symptoms right now! Thanks for alerting me!
I can't wait to visit with you some more!

Lilla said...

Sorry to hear about the diabetes diagnosis, but it sounds like you have a good attitude about everything. I am sure you will be able to get it under control very soon. Cyrus sure is a handsome fella, and he is lucky to have landed in such a loving home!

aurora said...

It's easy to get derailed, so glad to hear you are on the right track! What an amazing difference in Cyrus, handsome fellow.